*rage*

Sep. 7th, 2010 01:38 pm
ella_menno: (lament)
It has been a long time since I have been literally SHAKING WITH ANGER, and here I am, trembling so hard I can hardly type.



FUCK YOU, ATWT WRITERS.
ella_menno: (brothers gotta hug)
The assignments are out, and I am SOOPER excited about the prompts I received. Two of them are already off and running on the little hamster wheel I call my brain....

For my summergen author: I just re-read my prompts and they are so horribly, awfully picky - I'm so embarrassed! I was more concerned with establishing what I feel I can write so that I don't end up bungling my assignment, and I feel like my prompts have painted you into a corner.

Let me see if I can help at all (though if the prompts I provided did spark an interest, by all means, stop reading now!) I love brotherly interaction; backstory on any and all characters, major or minor; twisty, dark pieces; hurt/comfort; and lighthearted silliness.

Honestly - the fact that you're writing something for ME? Is wonderful and amazing enough all by itself. Thanks for signing up.
ella_menno: (brothers gotta hug)
The first part of this may be considered a teeny bit spoilery by true spoilerphobes, so I shall be considerate and cut. (Once I remember how to code things correctly, that is. Duh). Read more... )

Thoughts?
ella_menno: (life by emmavescence)
Does God care about religion?
ella_menno: (Default)
Somehow I managed to get myself sucked into "Dollhouse.". (guess I have a soft spot for dying fandoms. Who knew?)

Does anyone out there reading this watch it? I'm kind of dying to speculate about the last 2 eps.

In other news, it's really freaking hard to type on this wee tiny keyboard!
ella_menno: (blue pen)
The Queen And The Soldier - Suzanne Vega


I'm suddenly unable to listen to any other song, so I'm trying to figure out what 'pings' me so hard about this one.

I went to Suzanne Vega's website to see what she had to say about the song. Some quotes from her:

"I know that I wanted to write a song about a woman who was in power and it's hard to find a symbol for someone like that, especially in America. So I chose the queen to do that."

and
"To me, that was a song about power. It was a song about power and the misuse of power and how people hang on to it, no matter what, even if it means that they are ultimately unhappy and suffering because of it."



Here, I need to do this line by line. Lyrics in red.

obsessive geeky analysis herein )
ella_menno: (george by driving blind)
The kids don't have school today (teachers' convention), the weather is lousy, and one of them is still on the mend from the flu, so we're watching the LOTR trilogy back-to-back-to-back.

I'd kinda forgotten how much these movies are the Epic Saga of How Much Sam Loves Frodo. (It felt weird to put "Frodo" instead of "Dean" there, btw.)

So. How are you? Any interesting plans for Halloween? Cute pics of yourselves, your offspring, your pets, or your (other) I need to see?
ella_menno: (books)
Courtesy of some yet-to-be-identified illness, I am at home with ill, sleepy child today. Past experience suggests she'll be zoned out in front of the television for hours, so I'm looking for fic that is both lengthy and high-quality.

I'll read SPN, J2, BBT, Sentinel, and Smallville. Even if you think I've read it before, I'd love to hear your suggestions.

Thanks, peeps.
ella_menno: (ouch!harry)
Snagged from [livejournal.com profile] keepaofthecheez...

Ask me a fandom, and I will tell you:

+ OTP
+ Runner-up
+ Honorable mention(s)
+ Crack pairing(s)
+ Ship everyone else seems to like, but I don't

Fandoms I am/was/were/have been/will admit to knowing about:

SPN, Smallville, HP (books and films, but the books are better!), Sentinel, Twilight series (SHUT UP KATY), Big Bang Theory, CSI: Original Flavor, ST:TNG, CWRPF, As The World Turns, Percy Jackson and the Olympians, and basic-level LOTR.

*jumps up and down* Ask me ask me ask me!

So.

Sep. 21st, 2009 06:11 am
ella_menno: (blue pen)
How you doin'?
ella_menno: (life by emmavescence)
My kids aren't back to school until Monday, but the school where I work has been back in session since this past Tuesday. It makes for some confusing conversations.

Last year, I was the assistant in the split 4th/5th grade, in addition to part-time library coordinator and part-time 'tutor,' for lack of a better word. This year, it looks like I'll be spending the majority of my day in the preschool room, where there are 14 kids. (It's supposed to be limited to 4 year olds, but the principal admitted five 3 year olds. It's amazing what a world of difference that one year makes.)

I'm finding it both enjoyable and exhausting. It's easy to forget how *needy* children are at that age - and I don't mean that as a negative, at all; they SHOULD be needy! - but it does take its toll. Add to that a whole bunch of "I've never been away from Mom before" jitters, and you end up with lots of tears and snot.

I want to tell you about one little girl in particular. She's three, and she comes to us on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday mornings. Let's call her Gigi.

Her first day (she came on Tuesday, as it was the very first day and we had some special stuff going on) went pretty well. She wasn't entirely in love with the idea of Mom leaving, but was interested enough in all the other goings-on that the time was up before she could get too upset about it.

Wednesday, however, was different. She came in crying; Mom finally left with Little Brother (and I'm sorry, I know it's part of the job, but I find it incredibly difficult to encourage a parent to stop comforting his/her child and walk away - it feels like a horribly invasive thing to do), and Gigi sat on Teacher's lap.

Well, after a few minutes, Teacher got up to attend to some of the other kids, and Gigi kind of lagged behind her, when BOOM! Out of nowhere, she made a break for it. She was just gone - out the door and down the hall, running far faster than I thought a bite-sized three year old kid could run.

Gigi made it past all the classrooms, past the main office, past the principal's office, and into the lobby of the church before I caught up with her. When I reached her, I just *grabbed* - getting hands-on with the kids is a sketchy business these days, unfortunately, but she'd easily have gone straight into the parking lot.

Once I had her, I swung her up to hold her next to me. She was really crying - not the angry, wailing type crying, but the "help me for my heart is breaking" sobbing. In her soft little-girl voice, she kept repeating "I want my Mommy. I want my Mommy." Over, and over, and over again.

And yes, my heart was breaking a little bit, too, as I carried her back to class. Yet I kept thinking: what an incredibly brave thing to do. Think about it: you're three years old, and the person who's been the center of your entire life brings you to a mostly-unfamiliar place, and then leaves.

It's so normal and expected for kids to have problems with that at first (and just as normal, though much easier, for kids to separate with no issues!) - but how often do you have a kid that young with the presence of mind to think, okay, there's the door Mommy went out of - if I can get through it and go fast enough, maybe I can catch up to her and we can go home.

Reading over this makes me want to draw comparisons to my own life: how much easier it is to just sit down and cry over things that make me unhappy, when maybe I could get up and run through a (metaphorical) door and at least try to change my situation.

Hm.
ella_menno: (lament)
At this point, I'd let the clowns eat me, if only I could fall asleep.
ella_menno: (ouch!harry)


OR

http://www.someecards.com/usercards/viewcard/5c4403e6fb6a4bb0b16a1442ea31917b

Only some of you have any idea how very much I want to send this card today.

Don't worry. I won't.
ella_menno: (life by emmavescence)
Does anyone have the song "Panic Switch" by Silversun Pickups?

*sniffles*

Jul. 31st, 2009 08:23 am
ella_menno: (blue pen)
What are the five most heartbreaking things that have ever happened in your fandom(s)?

~ from [livejournal.com profile] fannish_5


In no particular order, and right off the top of my head:

1. The Sentinel: Blair. Fountain. "Don't you go!" *is broken*

2. Smallville: Lex's memories of how baby Julian really died - the end music ("My Immortal," by Evanescence), playing behind Clark's conversation w/Martha, was the killer for me.

3. Harry Potter (books): Fred's death in "DH." There were many moments in the series that made me cry, but that one hit me hardest emotionally. Odd, I know.

4. HP (movies): I have as many (if not more!) problems with the films as anyone, but Amos Diggory's reaction to Cedric's death always - always - brings me to tears. The wracking kind.

5. Supernatural: The closing moments of AHBL part one, and Dean's monologue to Sam at the beginning of part 2. Wrecks me, every time.

ETA: Ooh! Can't leave this out -

6. Revenge of the Sith: Everything after Anakin pledges fealty to Palpatine. I sobbed my way through the last, say, half-hour of that movie. It really did break my heart.

Lord. Now I feel all bummed out!

grrr!

Jul. 30th, 2009 09:10 pm
ella_menno: (lament)
I am so CRABBY, for absolutely no reason at all that I can think of. I just want everyone in this house to SHUT UP and LEAVE ME ALONE and to do so QUIETLY.

Did I mention that everyone needs to SHUT. UP.


*pulls out hair in great big silent clumps*
ella_menno: (calvin)
Freaking out. Must leave soon. Don't know what to wear. Feel insecure. Need a life coach.
ella_menno: (cookies!dean)
I am six different kinds of tired, but I couldn't go to bed without wishing one of my very specialist girls, [livejournal.com profile] sarahsaur81, a Happy Happy Birthday.

S, I have something cooked up for you, but (as seems to so often be the case) RL got in the way so it's going to be late. Though I guess "late" has become "normal" for us. Innyhoo. I wish I was there with youse guys, having Chips and Dips and Things (and Tasty Beverages!) at Macado's, and watching movies both Terrible and Fantastic, and making t-shirts, and staying up too late and all the other silly, ridonkulus, funtastic, wonderful things we do.

Luff you so much, Bitsy Pookums!!
ella_menno: (cookies!dean)
If you need a laugh, go here now. It's a literal video of "Total Eclipse of the Heart," and it made me giggle hysterically.


PS: [livejournal.com profile] que_divertido, you will LURVE it.

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