*sniffles*

Jul. 31st, 2009 08:23 am
ella_menno: (blue pen)
What are the five most heartbreaking things that have ever happened in your fandom(s)?

~ from [livejournal.com profile] fannish_5


In no particular order, and right off the top of my head:

1. The Sentinel: Blair. Fountain. "Don't you go!" *is broken*

2. Smallville: Lex's memories of how baby Julian really died - the end music ("My Immortal," by Evanescence), playing behind Clark's conversation w/Martha, was the killer for me.

3. Harry Potter (books): Fred's death in "DH." There were many moments in the series that made me cry, but that one hit me hardest emotionally. Odd, I know.

4. HP (movies): I have as many (if not more!) problems with the films as anyone, but Amos Diggory's reaction to Cedric's death always - always - brings me to tears. The wracking kind.

5. Supernatural: The closing moments of AHBL part one, and Dean's monologue to Sam at the beginning of part 2. Wrecks me, every time.

ETA: Ooh! Can't leave this out -

6. Revenge of the Sith: Everything after Anakin pledges fealty to Palpatine. I sobbed my way through the last, say, half-hour of that movie. It really did break my heart.

Lord. Now I feel all bummed out!
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Watched RotS a few days ago; tonight, caught Empire and Jedi. (I know I'm abbreviating them differently. Meh.)

So here's what's going through my head after said viewings:

1. Has the Emperor lost his touch in the 20 or so years since he turned Anakin? Because in RotS, he very carefully and deliberately seduces Anakin to the dark side. (I'll teach you to defeat death, I'll save your wife, you'll have more power, etc.)

In Jedi, Palpatine is all "hey, kid, here's the deal. Your friends are gonna die, your cause is gonna fail, and you're gonna be my apprentice." I mean, he's not even trying to convince Luke to turn - he's just telling Young Skywalker what IS going to happen.

Wouldn't it make more sense for him to bargain, like he did back in the day with Anakin? Something along the lines of, "if you accept the dark side, we'll spare your friends down on Endor"?

2. All right, here's a big one. Think back to TPM, and Obi-Wan's status. He was how old in that one - twenty-five, maybe? - and yet, he was still a Padawan. Granted, Qui-Gon said that Obi was more than ready to take the trials (the exact wording escapes me), but follow me here: Obi, as our example, gets taken from his birth family at no more than six months of age. He then spends the next twenty-four and a half years as an apprentice.

Luke, on the other hand, starts training at the advanced age of nineteen. He trains with old Ben for a ridiculously short amount of time - at most, I can give it a week, based on what we see in canon - and the remainder of his training (with Yoda) lasts, I'm guessing, for not even six months. (I always assumed it was a much shorter period of time, but the poking around I've done looking for fic has presented me with the idea that it could have been that long. Definitely not any longer than that.)

And yes, I understand that there are extenuating circumstances. But, come on - Luke is a fully trained Jedi (but for the confrontation with Vader) after, like, a semester's worth of study? Which leads me to my next point:

3. What, pray tell, was Luke up to in the period between Empire and Jedi? He goes from a whippersnapper who gets his clock cleaned by Vader to a zen-masterish, man-in-blackness, fully in command of himself and his awesome powers Jedi Knight. From his conversations with Ben and with Yoda in Jedi, it doesn't seem like he's been learning from them in the interim; what happened? He fasted and meditated? He reviewed what he'd already learned? He ordered Jedis for Dummies from Amazon Intergalactic? I'm at a loss, here.

4. Every time I watch these movies, I like Yoda a little bit less, particularly in the PT. He's a smug, arrogant little bastard with a superiority complex, and his wee!Jedi!raising ideas stink.

5. I so very, very desperately want to read fic set during Jedi that takes into account all the new canon from the PT. What was going through Anakin/Vader's mind as he watched the Emperor zap Luke with Sith lightning? Was he thinking about the time Palps was zapping Mace Windu and realizing that waaaaaaay back then, he should've saved Mace and not Palpatine?

How did he feel when he found out that he had a daughter, too? Did he get her identity from Luke's mind, or just the fact that she existed? If he knew Leia was his daughter, did he have even a moment of remorse for the particular pain he'd caused her?

And how about a post-Jedi story, where Anakin's ghost/spirit/whatever comes back to talk to Leia? What would they say to one another? Would she even consent to talk to him? I had this flicker of an idea where Anakin would want to talk to her, but was unable to get near her because of the anger and hatred she feels toward him. Since he is officially on the side of light again, her overwhelmingly negative-aggressive-dark emotions would prevent him from getting close to her.

I'm sure there are more plot and/or character points that bother me, but it's late, and I have to work in the nursery tomorrow this morning.
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yeah, yeah, i know...not what i'm supposed to be doing. pfft.

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much love for Revenge of the Sith. cut for the disinterested )

Oh gosh. Oh oh oh. SO MUCH LOVE FOR THIS MOVIE. Have I mentioned that? So, now, if you'll excuse me, I have to go watch the disc with all the extras on it.




all this AND we just got 'batman begins,' too!! life is SOOO good!
ella_menno: (Default)
Why am I unable to find a screencap of Padme's funeral I want to see the lovely, Ophelia-esque dress again.

Darn it.
ella_menno: (Default)
Because I'm a big dork, but I don't want to forget what I'm thinking about.

Just watched the 70-minute DVD Star Wars: A Musical Journey - some parts several times - and my brain is overflowing. Section 5, "A Hero Falls," ends with three shots one right after another: first, TPM Anakin in front of the Jedi council, Yoda vo "the future is clouded" - to AotC Anakin, answering Padme's "you're not all-powerful" with his "I should be - someday, I will be" -- to RotS' Gunray vo "Lord Vader" and Palpatine's vo "rise" along with a long slo-mo shot of newly!suited Vader being levered upright on the table.

Brought me to tears every time I watched it. In my head, over these 28 years (!) of this story, Vader has gone from this utterly evil, soulless thing to a ruined, broken shell of a man - and in the telling of his backstory, he's become a character, a person I can and do have pity on. Not that his actions as Vader are any less reprehensible, but having a context to put them into...I find that it makes so many parts in the OT that much more vibrant and tragic and emotional.

Examples. Vader's first appearance in ANH, stalking onto Leia's ship. Instead of solely seeing him as The Big Bad, now I see him as - well - crippled, certainly physically (can you imagine, having had the access to/power over/relationship with the Force that Anakin had before he was maimed, how it must have felt, how it must feel for Vader every day, remembering the way he used to be and now being able to touch a mere fraction of that power?) and just as certainly emotionally - he stalks onto that ship, and I know he's headed for Leia, and I'm thinking Oh, Anakin, you can't hurt her --

-- and towards the end of RotJ, in the throne room, when the Emperor is zapping Luke, and Vader is looming in the background, watching, in my mind I'm practically screaming stop him! Anakin, stop him - that's your baby, that's Padme's baby, you can't just stand there!

And I know there are so many other moments that'll come to mind after I see RotS, and again as I re-watch the OT.

I know there's been criticism from some quarters as to the quality of the PT. To me, though, they've added an immeasurable complexity to the OT, movies that I didn't think I could enjoy more than I already did.

**

A thought that might bear further introspection, if I can make the time.

Clearly, there's no small bit of Christological symbolism employed throughout the films (the "virgin birth" backstory in TPM, for starters). Add to that the "chosen one," the savior of the universe, the falling and redemption...it's there.

Another biblical parallel that can be drawn is, again, found in that final Emperor/Vader/Luke showdown. Bear with me, it's still rather fuzzy in my head, but I don't want to forget.

In Genesis, God commands Abraham to take Isaac up to the mountain and offer him as sacrifice. Though he's deeply grieved, Abraham obeys his Lord and brings the boy to the summit, and is fully prepared to kill his own child in order to be obedient to his God. (That God calls off the sacrifice at close to the last minute is not fully relevant to my point, I think.)

Back to the throne room: Luke has made his choice and - he will not join the side of darkness. Vader looks on as the Emperor begins to torture Luke - torture that is obviously meant to culminate in death. Keep in mind the number of years Vader has stood by the Emperor, how much he lost in choosing to be this Lord of the Sith, to have this power and control. Yet what does Vader do? When the time comes for him to make a choice, he finally makes the correct choice, a choice for good and light - instead of yet again obeying, he picks up the being he's sworn his allegiance to for almost the entirety of his adult life and, basically, tosses him in a pit straight to Hell.

Vader doesn't listen to his 'god', but he does do what's right. In the end, his love for his child wins out over his devotion to his Master. He chooses well, he chooses wisely. He renounces Vader, and once again becomes Anakin Skywalker - only for a moment or two, yes, but there is that redemption prior to his death.

Okay, in reading that over, it's definitely a mish-mash of Abraham/Isaac and the Redeemer motifs. Like I said - just wanted to get it down, and perhaps I can make more sense of it later on.

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