i'm not sure if you were happier then. i know i was more reluctant to bring up things that related to religion. once again, though, that might have more to do with my apprehension with complete trust. i guess that's something i have an issue with and i didn't even know it. apm and i had MANY discussions on the topic and the beginning of our relationship. but i digress-- i'm sure it was easier to just nod your head and agree. that way no "real" decisions have to be made. you really don't have to decide how you feel about abortion cuz the pope told you. in that regard i think i'm a little jealous, or the equivalent that doesn't make me sound weird. it's gotta be hard to just say "ok" and trust the church. especially in light of all the pedophilia. i'm sure having two catholic sons doens't help your wavering. kids change EVERYTHING (so i've heard). you're such a rebel. what is this rebellion of which you speak? asking things? not attending church each week? you still have faith, it may manifest itself differently at different times of you life is all. maybe the pope wouldn't be thrilled, but i bet God's ok with it. i feel like i'm not making any sense. no, i don't think you were happier. and if you were, it's cuz you were closer to us, in a city with things to do and when you saw your husband, or liked him more than 4 times a month, you had free time and friends you could count on and did i mention being closer to your family helped? that may have made you happier.
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Re: exsistential crisis
Date: 2005-10-13 04:40 pm (UTC)but i digress-- i'm sure it was easier to just nod your head and agree. that way no "real" decisions have to be made. you really don't have to decide how you feel about abortion cuz the pope told you. in that regard i think i'm a little jealous, or the equivalent that doesn't make me sound weird. it's gotta be hard to just say "ok" and trust the church. especially in light of all the pedophilia. i'm sure having two catholic sons doens't help your wavering. kids change EVERYTHING (so i've heard).
you're such a rebel. what is this rebellion of which you speak? asking things? not attending church each week? you still have faith, it may manifest itself differently at different times of you life is all. maybe the pope wouldn't be thrilled, but i bet God's ok with it.
i feel like i'm not making any sense.
no, i don't think you were happier. and if you were, it's cuz you were closer to us, in a city with things to do and when you saw your husband, or liked him more than 4 times a month, you had free time and friends you could count on and did i mention being closer to your family helped? that may have made you happier.