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...and in the dream, I open up the book to check out the chapter titles, and I realise there are only nine of them.

Mmkay, dream-me thinks; so they're long chapters.

I give the chapter titles another look, and I realize they're in a totally different, non-HP-ish font.

All righty, dream-me thinks; perhaps this is symbolic of how Harry and co. are, um, growing up? (Because, as we all know, the first sign of adulthood is when you change your font. *eyeroll*)

Then I give the chapter titles an even closer look, and I realize my copy of the book isn't in English. Not only that, but the entire book is printed in gibberish - several hundred pages of random groupings of letters.

I really, really need for this book to come out. I fear my sanity requires it.

*pathetic sigh*

Current Mood: awake
Current Location: the best chair EVAH

Last night, I had a nightmare; I think it was about my husband. I woke up, shook it off, and went back to sleep.

And had another nightmare, this time about my mom. Woke, shook, slept (lather, rinse, repeat?) - this time, it was about the kids.

The next one involved my sister.

And then a couple of friends.

Et cetera.

Tonight, I settled into bed at 10 PM. Within ten minutes, my pulse was racing, I was sweating, I felt queasy, and my brain was working so fast I could hardly process the thoughts as I was having them. Worst of all were the horrible things that kept showing up in my mind, things I don't even want to call "things I thought," because I don't want to claim ownership of them in any way. Terrifying, grotesque things - leering faces whose lips slowly melt away as they scream in horror. Other horrible things I don't even want to write out.

I have to think this is just pent-up anxiety about the last few weeks working its way out of my head. It has to be - it has to be. I can't be going crazy; I don't have the time.

I feel calmer now. Still afraid to sleep, though. Kind of sad, as sleeping is one of my favorite activities...or it was, anyway.

1. Well, okay. The whole of livejournal didn't blow up in my face like I was afraid it would, so that's all good.

2. The corner of my mouth is cracked and lo, it is very painful. The regular stuff I use (Aveeno lip stuff) isn't helping. Suggestions?

3. Scene in my kitchen earlier this morning -

BOYS: *gathered around counter*

ME: What are you doing?

OLDEST: Looking at the milk I spilled.

ME: Why are you looking at it and not wiping it up?

MIDDLE: We'll wipe it up, Mom. But first we wanted to decide what state it looked like.

(For those of you interested, the verdict was "Kentucky." It kind of did look Kentucky-ish, too.)

4. Dreamed about my grandmother last night. The dream has mostly faded, but I definitely remember her standing on top of a huge armoire type of thing in a hotel lobby. Oh, and she was wielding a machine gun.

...

Yeah. I dunno.

5. YAY MY PARENTS WILL BE HERE THURSDAY I AM SO EXCITED WOOOOOOOO!!

6. The kids are in the basement playing Jedi Academy. I can't tell you how that warms my heart.

Current Mood: amused

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