3.16

[ella_menno]

Okay, so, you know how I'm a big crying crier who cries?

I'm not crying. I WANT to - I can feel the tears and emotion and all of it up here *points*, but it's...locked up, somehow.

Possibly I am in shock. Just. I watched it, then I had to rewatch it immediately (well, with a small break to talk to katelennon, who called to check on me because she is sweet.)

Right now, I actually feel physically sick to my stomach, sheerly from the emotion of it all. I knew we weren't getting a happy ending - how could we, for one thing; I didn't really want one, for another - but still. Still.

There were all the things everyone else is talking about: the return of Smart!Dean; the ass-kickingness of Ruby; the brilliant 'family-ain't-just-blood' talk of Bobby's; Sam's scary-morphy-face; Dean's hallucinations; THE BON JOVI SINGALONG AND DEAN'S FACE OF MANPAIN; the creepy-as-fark little girl/demon on holiday; and and and and.

It all pales for me - it all gets buried under - the way the boys screamed for one another. This most definitely was not the yelling and hollering we've heard before: Sam. Was pinned up against a wall. Screaming. Screaming for Dean.

And then there was Dean, strung up like...like....

Ah, okay. There are those tears I've been waiting on.

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[sarahsaur81.livejournal.com]

I'm putting my chips on purgatory rather than the big H. I don't think he got dragged the whole way before Sam got a hold of Lillith.

*nods*

*passes tissues*